It has came to me that I still do behave not manly... Even if I have hit the gym, changed walking style, took note of my gestures. I still look like my old self.
This has brought to the light when I started Relief Teaching in a Secondary School. My gestures and voice appeared very not manly. And this behaviour is commonly known as ″Sissy″.
I really have no fucking idea that I appear as such. I have been telling my mind to change the way I behave ever since Secondary 1. But after 14 years, I then realised I have not changed a single bit. Perhaps the only change I have undergone was my mind, but my body was still the same. My friends started telling me it is probably due to my subconscious. But why my subconscious take over the control over my body?
And just yesterday when I was taking my IPPT, my heart was racing like a bullet train. However, my mind was like saying is just a normal test that I took every fucking year. Why is my heart beat so damn fast? And of course that heartbeat of mine affected my overall performance. I really do not know why my body reacted that way. Is that subconscious acting up again? Does my body has its own conscious? Or do I really have a hidden split personality hidden within myself? A feminine soul? I was really thinking if I should just visit a psychiatrist to dig out the hidden soul...
All these thoughts just began to flash across my mind during my test.
I hated my subconscious. I really wanted to get rid of this sissiness. Just want to behave like a normal guy... And I finally realised why no girls ever looked at me like a guy...
Should I just accept the way I am now? Be myself?
How can I behave ″myself″ when I do not even consider that as myself?
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Remembering Griffiths: My Classes
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| Griffiths Primary School Hall 2014 |
I took the chance when I was free to walk down my memory lane once more. And I have decided to write down the class I have attended during this journey. I think my memory is failing me. A lot of teachers I suddenly forgotten... Pardon Me!
Class 1/2 | Class 2/2
Form / English / Maths Teacher: Mrs Tan Chin Ai
Form / English / Maths Teacher: Mrs Tan Chin Ai
Mother Tongue Teacher: 程老師
Arts Teacher: Forgot...
Arts Teacher: Forgot...
PE Teacher: Forgot...
Music Teacher: Forgot...
This class was still quite memorable. I remember I had a classmate who kept stealing my eraser. (I still remember his name, but I shall not disclose his name. But I can tell you, he is now a regular Calefare in Mediacorp dramas.)
And I also remember I was once a favorite student in Chinese class. But I lost the favoritism when I was tasked to guide my slow classmate in a homework. (Again, I remember his name, but I shan disclose.) It was a simple comprehension. The passage was written something like "I go to school every day by bus", and the question asked, "How does the author go to school every day?" And he could not answer. I pointed out to him the sentence explicitly, but he still could not answer. So I could only tell him to copy down the sentence that answers the question. However, my patience was only until Question 3, and I ran out it. So I told him angrily to copy down the questions instead of pointing out the correct answers. And so, I got scolded by the teacher. And I think I ended my mischief ever since then.
Music Teacher: Forgot...
This class was still quite memorable. I remember I had a classmate who kept stealing my eraser. (I still remember his name, but I shall not disclose his name. But I can tell you, he is now a regular Calefare in Mediacorp dramas.)
And I also remember I was once a favorite student in Chinese class. But I lost the favoritism when I was tasked to guide my slow classmate in a homework. (Again, I remember his name, but I shan disclose.) It was a simple comprehension. The passage was written something like "I go to school every day by bus", and the question asked, "How does the author go to school every day?" And he could not answer. I pointed out to him the sentence explicitly, but he still could not answer. So I could only tell him to copy down the sentence that answers the question. However, my patience was only until Question 3, and I ran out it. So I told him angrily to copy down the questions instead of pointing out the correct answers. And so, I got scolded by the teacher. And I think I ended my mischief ever since then.
Class 3/6
1st and 2nd Form Teacher: Forget... But one of them think was called Miss Jeg
3rd Form / English / Science Teacher: Ms Ho Yan Yan
3rd Form / English / Science Teacher: Ms Ho Yan Yan
Mother Tongue Teacher: 林老師
Maths Teacher: Forgot...
Arts Teacher: Forgot...
PE Teacher: Forgot...
Music Teacher: Forgot...
Arts Teacher: Forgot...
PE Teacher: Forgot...
Music Teacher: Forgot...
This is supposed to be the best class among the Primary Three classes. (Because almost all of the students in this class made it the 4/2, 5/2 and then 6/2, which the well-known best class after streaming.) My results fell during this year, and the cause was because of a Nintendo Game Boy. But I was quite glad that I did not went up to the same class as most of them. I could sense that I was not so welcome in the class...
But I like my Form Teacher, my second favorite teacher in Primary School. She was a strict but nice teacher. I remember during end of the year, she even rewarded me with a nice file, and I think I received a cactus as well. I was really moved and even though I did not make it the the best class in P4, I still did make it to a good class in P6 in the end. I wonder how is she doing now.
Class 4/4
Form / English / Maths / Science Teacher: Mrs Praba
Mother Tongue Teacher: 林老師
Arts Teacher: Forgot...
Arts Teacher: Forgot...
PE Teacher: Mr Chin? Can't remember when was he my PE teacher.
And so I was "demoted" to this class. I am not saying this class is not good, I still made good friends in this class, and had my first experience to get a closer relationship with girls. I was like kinda stuck in the middle in between two girls. And the irony was, those two girls were best friends in the class, and sometimes they fought on and off, was because of... Ok, I am not boasting anything, but this story was definitely clear in my mind and I am not fabricating anything!
And so I was "demoted" to this class. I am not saying this class is not good, I still made good friends in this class, and had my first experience to get a closer relationship with girls. I was like kinda stuck in the middle in between two girls. And the irony was, those two girls were best friends in the class, and sometimes they fought on and off, was because of... Ok, I am not boasting anything, but this story was definitely clear in my mind and I am not fabricating anything!
Class 5/5
Form / Arts / PE Teacher: Mr Saravanthan (Can't remember the spelling...)
English Teacher: Mrs... She was actually an Australian, I think. Definitely Ang Moh.
English Teacher: Mrs... She was actually an Australian, I think. Definitely Ang Moh.
Mother Tongue Teacher: 鄭老師 Mrs Boey
Maths / Science Teacher: Mrs Lim Siang Yong
Music Teacher: ...Ms Cross? (In fact, I think for Music Teacher, is always has been Ms Cross, and there was a year was a older teacher, but I could not remember the name...)
This class was also quite a noisy one... And I remember I started to have a gang in this class, and of course is not those rebellious gang, but a gang to hangout with. And I remember we hated one teacher so much because half of the class failed this subject terribly. And I remember I started to lose interest in English because of another teacher and her accent...
Music Teacher: ...Ms Cross? (In fact, I think for Music Teacher, is always has been Ms Cross, and there was a year was a older teacher, but I could not remember the name...)
This class was also quite a noisy one... And I remember I started to have a gang in this class, and of course is not those rebellious gang, but a gang to hangout with. And I remember we hated one teacher so much because half of the class failed this subject terribly. And I remember I started to lose interest in English because of another teacher and her accent...
Class 6/6
Form Teacher / Art / Maths / English / PE: Mr Jason Fok
Mother Tongue Teacher: 張老師 Mr Teo Hock Chye
Science Teacher: Mrs Lim Siang Yong
Music Teacher: ...Ms Cross?
The most memorable class in my Primary School era. The most favorite teacher I could ever remember. Mr Jason Fok. He brought many laughter to our class, and the most fearsome teacher. That was still in the period when discipline measures were still allowed to be strict in MOE. We all were fully aware that Mr Fok were really concerned about each and every one of us. So we all respect him as our teacher. I think without him, my English will not be able to get B.
In fact, a few years ago, because of Facebook, we managed to get in touch with each other decided to have a gathering. But due to last minute changes, the meeting was cancelled because Mr Fok got something on last minute. But I heard one of them who did not followed the news, appeared instead and she got to meet Mr Fok, who also got his last minute appointment cancelled last minute...
Really wonder how was everybody I knew in GPS doing now...
Music Teacher: ...Ms Cross?
The most memorable class in my Primary School era. The most favorite teacher I could ever remember. Mr Jason Fok. He brought many laughter to our class, and the most fearsome teacher. That was still in the period when discipline measures were still allowed to be strict in MOE. We all were fully aware that Mr Fok were really concerned about each and every one of us. So we all respect him as our teacher. I think without him, my English will not be able to get B.
In fact, a few years ago, because of Facebook, we managed to get in touch with each other decided to have a gathering. But due to last minute changes, the meeting was cancelled because Mr Fok got something on last minute. But I heard one of them who did not followed the news, appeared instead and she got to meet Mr Fok, who also got his last minute appointment cancelled last minute...
Really wonder how was everybody I knew in GPS doing now...
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Game Review: Pokémon Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire
Let us first recall the previous remakes of the Pokemon Games.
Pokémon Ruby & Sapphire (2002) > Pokémon FireRed & LeafGreen (2004)
Pokémon Diamond, Pearl and Platinum (2006, 2008) > Pokémon HeartGold & SoulSilver (2009)
Pokémon players would have notice the remakes are modelled after the theme according to the versions before them in terms of the graphics and music styles.
According to the pattern of the remake releases, this remade has been highly anticipated ever since the release of Pokémon Black2 & White2, But instead, Game Freak decided to quickly release the Sixth Generation, which was Pokémon X & Y. This generation, introduced in 2013, featured a brand new Pokémon experience by switching the 2.5D graphics to an entirely new 3D space. Hence, allowing the developers to induce more depth into the gameplay and battle system. This is probably why Game Freak decided to push the release of RS remakes until last year.
And there we go, Pokémon Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire has been announced shortly after the release of XY.
I had been contemplating about if I would want to buy this game because Pokémon RS has been my least favorite game of all generations. And why would I think so?
1. The style of the background music was totally uncalled for. The trumpet-prominent music was too irritating and really brought down the gaming experience.For a person that could remember all the BGM of the games I have played, I could totally not remember the music at all.
2. The journey that a player takes is too non-linear. I know a linear journey might be very boring. But the path this game has set is all over the place. The player has to backtrack, chase Team Magma and Aqua all over Hoenn, jump here and there. So it could be quite confusing finding the path. I may be quite stupid if I was confused by this, but the other titles were not as confusing as this.
3. The story was not well developed. I shall not go into too much detail. But one good example is the part after Brendan/May has successfully saved Hoenn by subdued the Ancient Pokemon. After exiting the Cave of Origin, no one is there to welcome the hero back, and everyone seemed to ignore the fact that you just saved the world, other than some petty words from Steven.
4. The Pokémon design is getting worse... I am still take aback by the fact the Regi Trios are Legendary Pokémons... Period.
Finally back to the main topic. The remake of Pokémon Ruby & Sapphire, Pokémon Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire. The reason why I still bought it in the end is because I know it will be modelled after Pokémon XY, and by which it means that the top reason of why I dislike Pokémon RS will be eradicated. The trumpet music style will be replaced by the Orchestra style from the XY versions.
After playing Pokémon Alpha Sapphire, I would say that this remake made me feel like I am playing a totally new game. The developers made fully use of the 3D graphics and improved the game greatly. Besides the journey route and the Pokémon design (which they cannot change anymore), they have completely changed the story of Team Magma and Team Aqua. Technically, they did not change the whole story, but they did a few changes to the story to make it more dramatic and epic, a story more tuned towards RPG style. Of course, I am totally satisfied with the story after I have saved the Hoenn region and emerged from the Cave of Origin. The story is more complete as a whole. Ending the part where the Team Leaders of Magma and Aqua have reached a common consensus and stopped their plans.
Game Freak has also added multiple features to improve the whole gameplay.
1. AreaNav
This serves as Trainer Eye, Berry Watcher, and Secret Base Location Indicator. This is a good tool for player to easily look out for Trainers for rebattling, find out which Berry is ready to be picked, etc.
2. PokéNav
This is like a in-game guidebook. It shows which Pokémon is available or has it been captured when a player has entered a particular area. It also serves as a real Pokédex. When a player is standing near a Pokémon in city or town, the navi will automatically scan and tell the player which Pokémon it is.
3. Eon Flute
This flute is used to summon Latias or Latios, and a short segment will show how the player hops onto it, Mega Evolved and fly up to the sky, Player then can navigate the flying Pokémon and see the whole Hoenn from the sky. This is specially featured in the game for players to reach areas that are unreachable using HM Fly. These areas are secret areas to capture Legendary Pokémon from other regions. As such, this is also a great way to substitute HM Fly. But you will have to see the short footage of the Eon Pokémon keep mega evolving.
4. Flying to Individual Routes
In previous titles, even in XY, you can only use Fly to go city or town. But now, you can fly or use Eon Pokémon land on individual routes! Of course, the prerequisite is that you have passed by the signboard of the route.
5. Episode Delta
Similar to the formula of Pokémon XY, this side story will only be unlocked after defeating the Champion Steven. It depicts the connection of Rayquaza and Deoxys. During the course of the story, you will be able to capture those two Pokémons. I quite like this story, and it helps to train my Pokémon a bit more if I want to challenge the Pokémon League once more.
These are some of the main features I quite like about this game. With the improvements and the additional features, this remake is definitely worth playing. With the feature of Eon Flute, it would be useful if the future Pokémon games would rely less on the use of HMs. Like how Pokémon Black & White versions are less reliant on HMs. Probably it would be great if Game Freak can look into such gameplay.
The final verdict on this game.
Gameplay: 8.5/10
Music:9/10
Overall: 8/10
Pokémon Ruby & Sapphire (2002) > Pokémon FireRed & LeafGreen (2004)
Pokémon Diamond, Pearl and Platinum (2006, 2008) > Pokémon HeartGold & SoulSilver (2009)
Pokémon players would have notice the remakes are modelled after the theme according to the versions before them in terms of the graphics and music styles.
According to the pattern of the remake releases, this remade has been highly anticipated ever since the release of Pokémon Black2 & White2, But instead, Game Freak decided to quickly release the Sixth Generation, which was Pokémon X & Y. This generation, introduced in 2013, featured a brand new Pokémon experience by switching the 2.5D graphics to an entirely new 3D space. Hence, allowing the developers to induce more depth into the gameplay and battle system. This is probably why Game Freak decided to push the release of RS remakes until last year.
And there we go, Pokémon Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire has been announced shortly after the release of XY.
I had been contemplating about if I would want to buy this game because Pokémon RS has been my least favorite game of all generations. And why would I think so?
1. The style of the background music was totally uncalled for. The trumpet-prominent music was too irritating and really brought down the gaming experience.For a person that could remember all the BGM of the games I have played, I could totally not remember the music at all.
2. The journey that a player takes is too non-linear. I know a linear journey might be very boring. But the path this game has set is all over the place. The player has to backtrack, chase Team Magma and Aqua all over Hoenn, jump here and there. So it could be quite confusing finding the path. I may be quite stupid if I was confused by this, but the other titles were not as confusing as this.
3. The story was not well developed. I shall not go into too much detail. But one good example is the part after Brendan/May has successfully saved Hoenn by subdued the Ancient Pokemon. After exiting the Cave of Origin, no one is there to welcome the hero back, and everyone seemed to ignore the fact that you just saved the world, other than some petty words from Steven.
4. The Pokémon design is getting worse... I am still take aback by the fact the Regi Trios are Legendary Pokémons... Period.
Finally back to the main topic. The remake of Pokémon Ruby & Sapphire, Pokémon Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire. The reason why I still bought it in the end is because I know it will be modelled after Pokémon XY, and by which it means that the top reason of why I dislike Pokémon RS will be eradicated. The trumpet music style will be replaced by the Orchestra style from the XY versions.
After playing Pokémon Alpha Sapphire, I would say that this remake made me feel like I am playing a totally new game. The developers made fully use of the 3D graphics and improved the game greatly. Besides the journey route and the Pokémon design (which they cannot change anymore), they have completely changed the story of Team Magma and Team Aqua. Technically, they did not change the whole story, but they did a few changes to the story to make it more dramatic and epic, a story more tuned towards RPG style. Of course, I am totally satisfied with the story after I have saved the Hoenn region and emerged from the Cave of Origin. The story is more complete as a whole. Ending the part where the Team Leaders of Magma and Aqua have reached a common consensus and stopped their plans.
Game Freak has also added multiple features to improve the whole gameplay.
1. AreaNav
This serves as Trainer Eye, Berry Watcher, and Secret Base Location Indicator. This is a good tool for player to easily look out for Trainers for rebattling, find out which Berry is ready to be picked, etc.
2. PokéNav
This is like a in-game guidebook. It shows which Pokémon is available or has it been captured when a player has entered a particular area. It also serves as a real Pokédex. When a player is standing near a Pokémon in city or town, the navi will automatically scan and tell the player which Pokémon it is.
3. Eon Flute
This flute is used to summon Latias or Latios, and a short segment will show how the player hops onto it, Mega Evolved and fly up to the sky, Player then can navigate the flying Pokémon and see the whole Hoenn from the sky. This is specially featured in the game for players to reach areas that are unreachable using HM Fly. These areas are secret areas to capture Legendary Pokémon from other regions. As such, this is also a great way to substitute HM Fly. But you will have to see the short footage of the Eon Pokémon keep mega evolving.
4. Flying to Individual Routes
In previous titles, even in XY, you can only use Fly to go city or town. But now, you can fly or use Eon Pokémon land on individual routes! Of course, the prerequisite is that you have passed by the signboard of the route.
Similar to the formula of Pokémon XY, this side story will only be unlocked after defeating the Champion Steven. It depicts the connection of Rayquaza and Deoxys. During the course of the story, you will be able to capture those two Pokémons. I quite like this story, and it helps to train my Pokémon a bit more if I want to challenge the Pokémon League once more.
These are some of the main features I quite like about this game. With the improvements and the additional features, this remake is definitely worth playing. With the feature of Eon Flute, it would be useful if the future Pokémon games would rely less on the use of HMs. Like how Pokémon Black & White versions are less reliant on HMs. Probably it would be great if Game Freak can look into such gameplay.
The final verdict on this game.
Gameplay: 8.5/10
Music:9/10
Overall: 8/10
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
啊~多麼痛的領悟。
從一次又一次地嘗試，一次又一次地失敗，終於讓我從中領悟真正的我。
啊~多麼痛的領悟。
小時候的我，一直都是在聽從大人們的話。用功讀書、聽從指示、懂得禮貌、為人著想，只要是能夠討大人們的歡心，規規矩矩地做個大人們喜歡的孩子，我就覺得我立了大功，未來的路就應該這麼走准沒錯。然而，那樣的我一走就已經走了20多年。一直到了我大學畢業，思想還是那樣。我身旁周遭的人，有些可能認為我已成熟了，但事實上我並沒有。很喜歡搞幼稚的我，就一直是我真實原貌。我一直都是活在自己的世界裡。
就算是我領到的第一份理想的工作，都依然沒清醒，就一昧地抱著熱誠努力想做我最好的本分。殊不知這份熱誠卻被上司利用了，看到沒利用價值後就在狠狠地在我背上桶了一刀。
啊~多麼痛的領悟。
第一次的失敗後，就被那次可怕的黑影墮落地度過三個月。一支筆都不敢再去碰。畫畫的興趣完全被黑暗吞噬。還好是一位好友的相助而重回我對畫畫的熱誠，也恢復了我的自信心，重新尋找我理想的工作。但是幾次始終都被狠狠地被淘汰。每一次沒消息或應徵失敗，我都會自責自我反省。過了一個月的掙紮後才覺悟。
我這一生中，根本就沒為自己做過任何事。沒為未來著想、沒為自己鋪路。而且這些都應該在在服兵役或大學時就想好該走什麼路。不只是單單讀好書，而是開始鋪路。什麼都沒有而畢業的我一直在走一條死路。許多人在大學時就為將來開始鋪路。而我就只會愚昧地以為大學就好像上中學或高中一樣，只要讀好考好就一定會有一條路... 在這樣的大人世界裡，根本就沒有像我這種人的容身之地。
啊~多麼痛的領悟。
原來我生活到現在都只是一塊空殼。雖然在痛的領悟中覺悟，但曾經打拼過的我沒留下任何遺憾。
現在已是全新的一年，我為了迎接全新的我，立下新了新的目標。真的希望這條路能走得順利。
Saturday, December 27, 2014
The Worst Year. Ever.
In short, this year had been a turmoil for me.
I remembered I read the Fortune reading for Dragon babies during Chinese New Year: You will face many ups and downs in your career this year... which I totally disregard that paragraph I have read. I mean it is just a bit superstitious to believe that. And I believe most people will only believe their own fortune reading when it says something very positive and bright. Who in the world likes to hear negative comments, unless you need constructive criticism and feedback.
But the fortune turned out to be true.
The career turned out to be the most disastrous event in my entire life. I will not go into the exact details. but the incident casted a huge shadow on me, and it took me a long time to recover from the darkness.
I was shouldering many tasks and was very stressed out, so I was complaining how demanding things can be to my fellow colleagues, and one of them went to make small reports on me, which eventually got myself fired. I was rather happy that I can be freed instead. However, the nightmare was actually that I have to serve 1 month notice... as stated “when needed” in the contract.
Within that month, I have done crazy stuff: Pushing my body to the limits, Getting sick without getting MC, Sometimes skip lunch, OT everyday, just to get things done for my bosses wholeheartedly. I stupidly thought they were poor thing because they might not be able to do many things since it was their first time stepping out to be bosses of the company. And hence, they might not be able to manage and plan themselves properly, so if there was anything I can help, I will go all out to help. That was my naive self.
Nobody owes the company anything or whatsoever.
But I just stick to my own character, and pressed on to the very last day, and I thought things could wrap up nicely on time. Whatever task I was assigned, I finished it nicely and fast. But things just came up one after another. I could see no end, even until 10pm. Only after some confrontation, then my bosses decided to let me go. Only after the whole last day I was finally awakened. The true faces of my superiors. I was too bloody stupid. I did not fight for myself. I broke down terribly.
From that day onwards, I have never lifted my pencil for months...
My passion has became a nightmare. Whenever I tried lifting a pencil, I could not draw anything decent anymore. The whole incident just came, throwing at your face... It took me months and friends for me to recover my passion.
But I know after that fateful incident, I have changed to another person...
After a few months, once I have recovered from the incident, I have also went to interview for a localiser position for a Japanese game industry. The email for interview and arrangement came in too fast, and I only had 2 days to prepare, and in between those days I need to work part time. You could day I went to the interview totally unprepared. I not sure why I would allow myself like that... Perhaps the changed person I am now.
Nevertheless, the interview went too bad. It was to the extent that I felt so ashamed for Chiba sensei who has been guiding me throughout my Japanese course in NUS. My Japanese sucked terribly during the interview. Now I would feel the embarrassed moment everytime I face Japanese... which is almost all around my house.
But after this round of interview, I began to feel that my character might not be able to handle work that is related to my passion and interest. So I decided not to venture in games industry, drawing or even things to do with Japanese anymore... Maybe the time when I have enough capital to start my own company. Haha.
But the question now is... What should I do?!
I remembered I read the Fortune reading for Dragon babies during Chinese New Year: You will face many ups and downs in your career this year... which I totally disregard that paragraph I have read. I mean it is just a bit superstitious to believe that. And I believe most people will only believe their own fortune reading when it says something very positive and bright. Who in the world likes to hear negative comments, unless you need constructive criticism and feedback.
But the fortune turned out to be true.
The career turned out to be the most disastrous event in my entire life. I will not go into the exact details. but the incident casted a huge shadow on me, and it took me a long time to recover from the darkness.
I was shouldering many tasks and was very stressed out, so I was complaining how demanding things can be to my fellow colleagues, and one of them went to make small reports on me, which eventually got myself fired. I was rather happy that I can be freed instead. However, the nightmare was actually that I have to serve 1 month notice... as stated “when needed” in the contract.
Within that month, I have done crazy stuff: Pushing my body to the limits, Getting sick without getting MC, Sometimes skip lunch, OT everyday, just to get things done for my bosses wholeheartedly. I stupidly thought they were poor thing because they might not be able to do many things since it was their first time stepping out to be bosses of the company. And hence, they might not be able to manage and plan themselves properly, so if there was anything I can help, I will go all out to help. That was my naive self.
Nobody owes the company anything or whatsoever.
But I just stick to my own character, and pressed on to the very last day, and I thought things could wrap up nicely on time. Whatever task I was assigned, I finished it nicely and fast. But things just came up one after another. I could see no end, even until 10pm. Only after some confrontation, then my bosses decided to let me go. Only after the whole last day I was finally awakened. The true faces of my superiors. I was too bloody stupid. I did not fight for myself. I broke down terribly.
From that day onwards, I have never lifted my pencil for months...
My passion has became a nightmare. Whenever I tried lifting a pencil, I could not draw anything decent anymore. The whole incident just came, throwing at your face... It took me months and friends for me to recover my passion.
But I know after that fateful incident, I have changed to another person...
After a few months, once I have recovered from the incident, I have also went to interview for a localiser position for a Japanese game industry. The email for interview and arrangement came in too fast, and I only had 2 days to prepare, and in between those days I need to work part time. You could day I went to the interview totally unprepared. I not sure why I would allow myself like that... Perhaps the changed person I am now.
Nevertheless, the interview went too bad. It was to the extent that I felt so ashamed for Chiba sensei who has been guiding me throughout my Japanese course in NUS. My Japanese sucked terribly during the interview. Now I would feel the embarrassed moment everytime I face Japanese... which is almost all around my house.
But after this round of interview, I began to feel that my character might not be able to handle work that is related to my passion and interest. So I decided not to venture in games industry, drawing or even things to do with Japanese anymore... Maybe the time when I have enough capital to start my own company. Haha.
But the question now is... What should I do?!
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