After leaving my First Job...

The stress, the insecurity, the fear, the nightmare.

All these were how I felt during the 9 months of my first job. I recorded down in Japanese how bad the company was and it was one of my previous posts. It was horrendous. A boss can be totally no faith in their employees, but trust a foreign talent with no other apparent skills, other than using Microsoft Paint. I always kindly helped that FT when she met any difficulties with IT stuff, and yet she could still betray me. Nevertheless, I heard that disgusting FT was sacked as well, and I still wish that company would just continue the way how the founders managed it. No foresight, no planning, no knowledge about IT industry, and no welfare for employees. The only thing that keeps the company running is a strong financial backup from a particular source that I shall not reveal. 

I do check the website back once in a while though. It seems like there are already some social media accounts that were already inactive for almost a year. Good, keep it that way. The way how they torment me, how they abuse me, have already wounded my heart deeply. The deep scar they have inflicted in my heart will never ever be healed...

Anyway, after gaining some experience through more interviews and some reflection, I have decided to take a step back from entering IT industry. And pursue my old dream: To become a teacher. 

What was holding back me previously was handling students... But after going through the first job, I tell myself, I should totally educate the young kids, not to be like these people when they grow up. 

I started relief teaching duties at Holy Innocents` High School. So far was quite enjoyable, even though they are quite an unexpected number of mischievous, rebellious and talkative students. At least the teaching staff is really a bunch of nice people, which makes me feel quite homely. 

During Term 3, I took over a teacher temporary while she went back to NIE for a short term course. And now Week 8 is over. Time passes so freaking fast. And I really dunno if I had taught in the correct way, in the correct manner. But I do enjoy teaching so far. Not really enjoy as compared to drawing and designing. Nonetheless, it is still a job that I know I can stick with it. 

Left 1.5 weeks more. And even though I shouted and scolded the classes a lot, I think I will still miss them. I`m quite an affectionate person after all. I will try not to stick too much emotions into it. Hehe.