Still the Ignorant Me

Jack of All Trades but Master of None!

Familiar phrase, isn't it?

That is the precise phrase that DOESN'T describes me. I may know a lot of things at the surface, but really that "a lot of things" is just a small significance compared to the every little thing in the world.

Even my current knowledge of my passion, drawing and design, are just little hobbies. Because the world of designing are really way bigger than what I think. I never existence of so many helpful sources of designing until yesterday when I was introduced to a website. It was so many designing tips and sources and freebies for designers! I spent literally hours to look through... Only some of them. I took like a lot of times to study them carefully each of them. I really wanted to execute some of the tutorials and tips given, but there are so many and I was lost as to what to start with first.

The world is always big. But when I tried to go deeper, I will feel like my brain cannot take it. What is wrong with me?! I want to be a Master! Not Pokémon Master! Sometimes my brain always deluded me in thinking I might be a leader quality, because most leaders are really just Jack of All Trades but Master of None. But the thing is I am a person who lacks confidence. I have doubts in my execution of command. Always have doubts. Always scared something will screw up. Always fear something negative will happen. That's why most of the time I rather taking people's command. Probably that is just a way to protect myself from any responsibility. During secondary school, I remembered many teachers gave me the role to exercise my leadership. But in the end, I was always too scared and shrugged the responsibility away... If I seized the opportunity right, maybe I would be a different person... Oh wells, taking about regrets...

Hope I will really become a Master. I shall study and train myself! But at home is just not the conducive environment for me to change myself... By travelling needs so much money... Oh wells, talking about being poor. I must really find a way to break the poverty.

Otherwise, it is just the ignorant Me.
The same old me.