Clinging onto the Foolish

It has been nearly 4 months ever since I have graduated. Almost all my friends had already found a job, while I still rotting at home playing and drawing, playing and drawing, playing and drawing, and having some short meetups with other friends too.

While some of my jobless friends still continue to hunt for prospective jobs, I only sent out 3 applications to 3 game companies in Singapore and have been slowly waiting for replies patiently. Some might say what the hell am I doing, sending out these few. Some might think I am overly confident that I will surely get called from these companies. Well, I have to say I am neither. But just acting like a foolish boy, hoping to get called. 

So far, only 1 of them replied after 12 days. That was the dream company I was hoping to get in. They required me to write an essay why would I want to join a game company and how would I contribute. The challenge is: To write in both Japanese and English. I was damn excited, and wanted to submit that essay as fast as possible without them having to wait for me too long. Writing in English has always been my weakest. The readers of my blog should have known. You could probably seen it easily while you are reading this piece of crap. In the past, I always have my writing vet before I submit, but this time I thought of using my own strength to do it: Without let people vetting it, and I would check it by myself. However, it was been another 13 days and no reply yet... Probably I have always been weak in writing English in the academic writing style. (Everything I wrote in English wrote so far is just as good as a primary school kid standard.) Probably my lousy Japanese. (Got a N2 so what? It did not test our writing skills.) Probably I have ruined the precious chance for me to get my job in the dream company... 

Nevertheless, I am still waiting for them to reply me. I tell myself to give them 2 weeks before I start making my move. 

If you ask me why game company casually, I will just say no reason. I believe people like things for no reason. Just like why some people like this particular thing, or even why people like this girlfriend or this boyfriend. I just think like making game is just enjoyable thing. Making fantasy world alive. Isn't this reason sufficient enough? Of course when I was asked to write an essay I will not write such a thing. It was a more elaborate account based on this simple reason.

Things in life is already so complicated. So why not take a step back and make it easier and simpler? It just makes me wonder now if the recruiting team is looking for a more complicated reason...

I just want to be a part of a big team that create amazing game that people could enjoy. If this ideology is wrong, I wish someone from the industry can hit me on the head now and advise me to switch path.

Please let this wait be worthwhile...