And the cycle goes on again...

Gosh, I know that I have not been regularly update the blog ever since the semester starts. No, in fact no posts at all! Well, since there is no point writing one sentence in a post or it is boring to update normal things that happened in the school...

I would say that the emo-ness struck again upon me. The history just keeps repeating itself and I really don't know how to get out of it.

This semester was no different, or perhaps slightly worse than the other previous semesters I had (except the semester when I scored a SAP of 3.90). The Reading Week I had was "well-spent" on my 2 assignments and I practically had 1 day to prepare for an exam that starts on Saturday. And one day for each of my core modules as well, and less than half a day for my Unrestricted Elective, Japanese Level 4. I seriously don't know if I should be happy that my exams end early this semester...

The studying process was ok, but when it's time to face the exam paper, one word always perfectly described my reaction: Stunned. The questions never failed to give me a surprise heart attack. Sometimes, you thought you got the basics but you totally have no idea how to even start to tackle the questions! Some questions can be done if I am given sufficiently longer time to do. But the time given obviously was not enough.

The most frustrating thing was when you are sitting in the middle of 2 zai kia, and they are your friends!! Not only that, when you think the paper was rather challenging, after the paper, one of them came to you and said the paper was fucking easy! I immediately gave a big sigh inside my mind... Again, I found myself blaming myself for not having the brain to think as quick as them. I know perfectly that I should not think so negatively and different people have different brains, but I just hate the feeling of "Accepting the fact", and I can do so many things to improve myself. Then again, when comes to a subject that I have not much interest on it, I will tend to procrastinate... My life is always full of these shitty dilemma, dilemma and dilemma.

Another worse thing was I can't even get one internship. Probably have to blame myself for only applying 3 super-hard-to-get-in internships...