Soon, half of my journey as a Year 3 student is going to end. I remembered I told myself to work even harder ever since I've made a big jump and I'm very near to obtain my second-lower class degree.
However, things are not going smoothly.
Yes, Year 3 is expected to get very busy. But I have never felt so stressed before. All the deadlines to hand up assignments and projects was driving me crazy. I admit that at some point of time I really felt like fainting. There were also some occasional chest hurting and head spinning. So I always slack off a little bit, dropping all my high expectations I have set for my project. In the end, I did not do well in all the projects and mid-term exams. I've also spent quite a lot of time doing assignments that normal people could do it in a very short time. Sometimes, I really wondered if I'm just dead stupid or too tired.
Chances of pulling my grades up to the second-lower class is not going as smoothly...
Fortunately, I had this module which can tear me away from reality for a while. Although this is another module which got me so busy. I will just treat it as my temporal escape to relieve my stress by acting crazy. Yes. This is the theatre study module which requires students to learn theories and acting. I have never thought I will take this module at all. But I really enjoyed it.
There are still some time for me to study and catch up since the semester week is over. I always tell myself to mug when I'm on my way to school. But the drive just disappears as soon as I sat down and stared at the lecture notes...
I know there is no use thinking the pessimistic way.
I know I need to get working.
I know there is still chance if I don't give up now.
But why do I keep hesitating?
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