3 Days...

From Monday onwards, I took 3 days leave and all I did is to slack at home...

I am quite tired of my life right now. All I do is to wake up 4.30am everyday, report for work at Tuas, then do things that are really meaningless, and face those things that no one will want to do. All those things will just thrown to us, Guofeng, Ken, Ming Jie, Chung Kit or me. The NSFs club members. Ironically, the people there treat us very nice, really nice. Nice, but we still have to do all the things... And after each tiring day, I will just vent my anger on my family... and just hope I can relax and all I have to do is to just stare in front of the computer the whole night, no mood to do other things.

I will be leaving the service in 6 months time, and my Computing course starts in more than a year time. My officers, my seniors and even my mum courage me to sign for another 6 months... But I am not enjoying the life I am in right now, and I know I am not behaving like I used to be. Whether is it when I'm at home, or when I'm working. I know that I'm not myself. I treat my family and my friends when working (Especially Ming Jie) differently. I am really lucky to have the NSFs club working with me. When I'm have no mood to do anything, they will be there to help me. Really need to thank them.

I prefer my old school life. I need that 6 months of 2009 to turn me back to what I am.

I was too lazy to call friends out during these 3 days. I was afraid to face the disappointment when they said they could not make it and thus spoiling my mood. I have been getting quite a few disappointments after getting the CSC class together during the past few months. However, today I faced it again. I thought of watching Zohan, and Kai Yan agreed to watch with me when I asked him on Sunday, so probably today could watch it. But still, he could not make it.

These 3 days I can say that is the time I use to escape from that life. Temporarily. Hope tomorrow can look at that life at a different perspective, and not to always count down to the days I have left in the service. Otherwise, to endure another 6 months.

Counting Down: 5 Months and 19 Days